So i made my first post on this blog, and here we are 4 months later… It is quite disappointing isn’t it. I bought a whole domain for this, spent time taking pictures and thinking about how to design this blog just for me to not use it after all. I guess it’s on brand with the theme of this blog though. You see i wanted my second post to be about how my disabilities affect me, most disabilities can affect people very differently so and i wanted to have a clear explanation about how it is for me and what my symptoms are, to clear up misunderstandings that might happen, or just for someone to maybe relate to. I wanted to write in a clear easy to understand way, but as it turns out writing about one’s disabilities is harder than i thought and takes a lot more text than i thought. Long story short, i got too tired, decided to try again later and then ended up not doing it anymore… story of my life. I think the perfectionism of wanting it to be clear and eloquently written is what has kept me from finishing the post too, it’s annoying because i made this blog with the intention of trying to not be perfect and just write as if writing in a diary, real, not perfect and random. Which is why i’m making this post now, to break through the barrier. My “how my disabilities affect me” post is not done yet, and it might not be for a while, but i still wanna write out my thoughts and share my experiences in the mean time, so that’s what i’ll do. It won’t be consistent, it won’t be professional or eloquent, it won’t even be thought through sometimes, and i have to learn to be okay with that, because perfectionism is just ableist.